Want to be a Deer

Lord,

Lately, I've felt really guilty with wanting to be in love with someone.  I want someone to want me.  But Lord, my affections should be first and foremost toward you.  I have been hung up on romantic movies, songs, and books lately.  It kind of hurts to read or sing along with those songs.  I don't know what it is like, but I want to know.  Songs that are beautiful and graceful are full of love, but they kind of pain me.  I am trying to not think about what is in 26 days: Valentines Day.  I've never been in love on V-Day, and I know that this year will be a slightly sad day again.  But Lord, if I celebrated your love on this day, I know you would replace my loneliness.  I have to keep my heart pointed in the right direction and wait for you to reorient my focus.

But Lord, I want to write a love letter to my future love.

'You are wonderful being you being with me,

You take me to a place closer to real life.

You make the grey bright like those days in May.

You are funny and insist on making me laugh,

You take me with you resting and busy-ness.

You make the clouds roll away to reveal a shine.

You are not stuck in perfect but moving through time,

You take me away from loneliness and into gentle duo,

You make me not out of control but out of earnest,

You are you and I am me but together we are we.'

Thank you Lord for your plan, and thank you for putting this longing in me for someone to love here on the earth of your creation.  I can honestly say that I have never thanked you for this before, because I always felt shameful of not being satisfied.  But you give us our desires and you are the wonderful fulfiller of them all.  You are greater than my emotions and feelings.  But you did create them!  Lord thank you for them, and I thank you that I am not 2D but oh so multidimensional. 

Thank you Jesus.  In your name,

Amen

Remind Me Who I Am to You!

Dear Jesus-

Thank you for your grace and mercy Lord.  Even though I get lost in my thoughts sometimes, you are the one who reassures me who I really am in you.  Please take me into your truth daily.  Redeem the incorrect labels I have placed on myself.  Remove the guilt I also put on myself.  Lord you are bigger than the names we give ourselves.  You want for us to ask you for a name in you, Jesus.  Thank you for a name that is full of your grace.  Jesus you are beautiful and full of second, third, 73rd chances...  You are beautiful. 

Today I found a video on YouTube that is amazing.  The song is called "Remind Me Who I Am" by Jason Gray.  Watch it below!

Thank you, Lord for your love and truth!

In your name,

Amen