Afraid of "With"

Dear Jesus,

Confession is scary Jesus. I am sometimes more afraid to confess my sins to others than you, Jesus. That scares me, because that probably means that I value other's opinions so high. That brings sadness to me and conviction. It is hard to talk about the dark corners of ourselves with other godly people. You command us to do this, and honestly, I don't think I've ever done it. In examining the "why" of this fear, I discovered that I am afraid of being with people sometimes. I have been crushed by so many Christians before when I have revealed the cracks in my heart, so I think that fear is so deep rooted. Jesus you are the only one that can heal me of this.

Basically, I am afraid of the "we." I have been the "we" with people and they stepped on me time and time again. I think that my dependence on them was wrongly placed, and I confess that I let people break me, and I didn't rely on your strength Jesus. I have often isolated myself in life, and I need help to not do this again.

Lord, you provide for me. You love me. Please give me a group and a friend to be honest in You with Jesus. I am sorry, and I repent of my crippling fear at times. I also pray that others would be free from this isolation and fear. May you be real to me and lead me not into temptation, but into your loving arms.

Thank you for your love and hope.

We are weak and you are strong. Please lead me there today.

In your name that dispels fear and demolishes temptation,

Amen