Today I Realized Something About Myself

Lord, 

Today as I was reflecting back on giving my testimony during a night of sharing testimonies with my Small Group at church I realized something. Something about me. Something about you. Something about my view of you. Today I discovered that in looking at my parents' relationship, that I know what it is to be loved by a mother and a father. They do a great job of providing for us kids and giving us wisdom filled advice. For that I am eternally thankful. I always feel supported in my dreams and aspirations! I always feel that my aspirations always have a sounding block and opportunities to practice those dreams!

But... (du du duh...) No, not really! But still I discovered that my parents have done a marvelous job of providing parently support and opportunities for growth. One thing that never fully developed in my sight as a child growing up was expression of love and affection between a man and wife. I'm talking the little things, thoughtful things. Maybe that influenced how I view You, Lord. I always thought of you as a father. I do not find it challenging to see you as supportive and loving in a parent-like way. But the idea you giving me someone to love on a deeper level seems foreign. I haven't really seen it, therefore I don't really know what to expect or think. I have no frame of reference within those closest to me. I don't know what I haven't really seen.

So I sometimes don't think of you beyond my Lord and my Father. I pray that you will begin to take more of a dimension to me as I learn more about all of who you are. I ask that you show me the other aspects of your character and relationships.

I pray all this in your holy name! 

Amen