Lord-
Sometimes I just wish I could play my guitar and not think about all my responsibilities. I am now 23, and I enjoyed my birthday. BUT (oh no the big wrecker word) lately my regrets have outnumbered my joys. I know that is such a pessimistic view. But lately I have just been focusing on my shortcomings and sense of failure, rather than your grace that pulls me and repels me away from the sin and temptation of this world. But lately, even though I'm driving with a dirty windshield through life, you keep reminding me that "there's no such thing as perfect people, there's no such thing as a perfect life....be amazed and be changed by a perfect God (you, Jesus)." These are specific lyrics from Natalie Grant's Perfect People song (see below).
This keeps coming on the radio, especially when my destructive thoughts seem at their peek. Thank you Jesus for reminding me that you are the only perfection, I cannot be perfect here and my life can never be that either. You are the element that allows for us to gaze into perfection.
Another powerful song is by Ginny Owens called "Free". One girl from my youth group growing up showed me this song and it changed me. God you used it to bring about a transformation in me.
Thank you Lord for walking with me even when I fall from the path lately. I'm sorry, but I guess I keep trying to carry things on my own, but I know you are the only one who carries me when I let myself get discouraged. I know I don't deserve you, but you came to die for me. That is what makes me feel so so small at times. Though, that is probably really good for me. I'm sorry I fight my smallness sometimes. Please make me okay with feeling small and let me follow you and not my own wanderings. Thank you Jesus for speaking to me, even when I am not listening.
Thank you again Lord.
In your preserving name,
Amen
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